Saturday, December 17, 2005

Hms. This morning woke up at around 0800. Right eye can hardly open. Dunno wat's wrong with it though. Go rub abit. Den wash abit. Now opened. But still, smaller den the other eye. Hahas. Kinda cute =) but the experience of that sux.

Abish. Today ish Sat... And I have nth much on wors. Haiz. Another boring Sat? I wanna go out. Lols. But I dunno wat I wanna do... neither does where I wanna go...

Lost. In the little mind of mine.

Been wondering wat's going on within me these few days. Worrying about someone, missing someone and being confused about the actions that I should take. Varying levels of confidence, mood swings =D. Lols.

Hms. In fact, I woke up with a weird feeling of emptiness in me. Somehow. I didnt know wat to do. I just wanted to lie down on my bed, resting, thinking of her. Then that's when I realise I cant open my stupid eyes. Kinda pissed and worried. Dunno wat's wrong with it also. Den after doing all that I could have done. I went back to thinking. She sounded rather tiredz the few times I called her. And she always reply me after 2230. Zzz. Lights out timing in NS was 2230. My little dEaRy ~ are you really that tiredz? I hope not. I'm worried wors. Dots. I guess I have to find myself the correct path to take. But meanwhile, I have to stick with being confused and retarded =D

Haiz.

Undecisive sia. Likett how to become a leader in the future. Lols.

Feeling sick le. Having flu, cough, slight fever and a stupid small right eye.

Indeed. I still remember the theme of BMT when I stepped in Tekong 2 weeks ago. -- Training boys into men -- (Something likett lar, okay?) Perhaps it's true sia. Only when you lost nearly all your freedom, then we will realise wat do we really treasure most. Abish. Before NS. I had so much time to do so little things. Now, I have so little time to do so many things. Haiz. (The worst part is that when you wanna simply fly non-stop to her side but you wake up to realise that in reality, you are freaking trapped in that pathetic little island.)

I wished I could have that gay black cloak from The Promise. Den I will be able to fly back time, to complete wat I really wanna do.

Tiredz. Mentally. Although I refuse to rest. But I will stop typing =) Rofl.

p.s I am still feeling suicidual as usual. But I rather die in honor. Gimme a war to die in pls.

awaitin` destiny silently__] *at* 10:18 AM