Sunday, May 15, 2005

Hms. Meow finally blogged. And twice =) That's a gd sign, a gd start. Lols.

Actually supposed to have another... long entry de. But last nite, yesh around this time, I blogged. But well, Blogger was down. Whole long entry lost to neverland. Hahas.

Meow, I was seldom wrong I suppose. Wahahas. How arrogance! But well, the midi really very... nice. Refreshes alot of old memories... Some of which I would never have forgotten, but perhaps just seldom reminded. Haiz.

Just feel that... Time really flies. It was just like yestheday when I 1st stepped into SRJC, beaming with hope. Still remember me, meow, ks and zw.. We all together.. Cos we were rather late, cannot find which OG we from. Have to resort to sit by the sides. Hahas. The blurrish us. Wahahas. We have came a long way. The path.. was smooth, though filled with obstacles. Haiz. Meow. How I wish we could never have grown. How i wish we could always be the same old us. Why must we change? Some say, it's for the better. Somehow, I feel that this is just a great lie. Spunned to convince, no, to comfort us of the upcoming changes. OMG. Life sux. I just wanna vanish into the purest air.

Well... Still remember our Bhs days... 1st day of sch.. Sec1.. Go into class. See all the idiotic faces around me.. Still remember seeing Meow and Cheng Long 1st.. Cos they sit beside me during the ice-breakers.. Hahas.. Lame. Den the class.. Haiz. Those occasions would never occur again. Wonder if science could ever progress that far, that we really can go back to the past. If so.. I would have stayed there, living in the past. Hahas. Day-dreaming. Yes yes... Day.. 0052 am.. Morning le..

Meow! Why must we go through so many stupid ordeals? This is suppose to train us, to shape us, to create a better us? But why for? AhHh.. Just hate reality. Always moving so fast, so rapid. Nearly impossible to catch up. Damn tiredx and sick of living. If I have the courage to die now, I would be dead. Yes Yes.. Den no one would press that "publish post" and no one will see this entry already. Wahahas. Fun?

Sad. It's been 6mths le... Maybe it has already became a isolated issue le bah. Perhaps I'm really sooooo fearful. Still can clearly recall.. That day... Ran so fast. Really got that fear that I will never get to see her again. Dunno why. Kept running.. Wahahas. Faster den bus... No really bah... But everything seems like a blur. I didnt bother about how i appeared in front of the -- crowds -- Imagine 2 idiots splinting in the CityLink. Was definately a once-in-a-lifetime experience. But well... Maybe that's the power of love bah? I hope so too. Probably not. Den I would be struck in this pathetic life. Ah. Wat am I talking... To really love someone in a lifetime... Ish a blessing... Ah. Hahas. Just that this blessing didnt last.

Tiredx le. Meow, jia you. Join the airforce? Wahahas. Nxt time if I going to take a plane you controlling worx. Pls tell me... I try my best.. To change flight =X Lols.

Okok.. must end le.. Anyone pls help me, a pathetic and lost soul, to find the midi in my blog... Cos I only have the link, but cannot dl. I want the track desperately. Haiz. Though it not the most pressing matter. Haiz. Thanks.

With great love, comes great happiness. At the same time, depression slugs in.

awaitin` destiny silently__] *at* 12:44 AM